The next morning, February 6, she gouged her own eyes out while high on meth. Kaylee Muthart, 20, of SC told Cosmopolitan magazine that it all started with drinking and smoking marijuana, which later led to harder drugs while she was in school.
Rather than feeling sorry for herself Ms Muthart has chose to be positive and even thinks losing her eyes may have been a good thing because she hasn't used drugs since having an operation on her optic nerves.
She was hallucinating and thought a friend went to sleep in a nearby church named South Main Chapel and Mercy Center, which caters to the homeless, the addicted and the needy. My daughter was involved in a tragic incident that has left her permantently blind. He held her hand.
'That was a struggle. I can't even explain that feeling when I found out, it was horrifying. "I'm thankful, it's a frightful thing, but I'm still thankful because God spared her life". She said her faith is helping her cope with the hard times and challenges.
"I thought everyone would die if I didn't tear out my eyes immediately", she told Cosmopolitan.
She added: "It was scary, I didn't understand what God wanted of me, but it made me feel a sense of righteousness that I had to be the one to do it". "And I was glad to do it because I've always had a big heart and nobody's ever giving me that love back". After her release from the hospital, she also spent time at a psychiatric facility.More news: Dicks Sporting Goods (DKS) Getting Somewhat Negative News Coverage, Study Shows
"I proceeded to pull out my eyes with my bare hands and twisted them, and pulled them, and popped them, " she told PEOPLE. I told the pastor who showed up, "Pray for me, I want to see the light, pray for me"'.
"I later learned she had recorded our conversation, during which I said I "didn't want to be in the world because it was too evil" - the proof she felt she needed to get a court order and commit me". Imported methamphetamine is more potent than the type that used to be made from ingredients available at any grocery or drug store. "It is a awful world to live in", Muthart told PEOPLE. "Later, I googled the symptoms that surprised me the most - numb lips and feeling like I was on top of the world". Tompkins "can't even explain how it feels". It became common for Muthart to take ecstasy or meth and read the Bible to herself. "Complete terror", Muthart's mother, Katy Tompkins, told PEOPLE.
She struggled against several large men who had come out from the church.
Muthart was in a drug-induced hallucination when she had her epiphany.
She then went on to explain the incident brought on by meth that was most likely laced with other chemicals. She started using meth about six months prior to the accident.
The next day, she was still high. She is adjusting to her surroundings but overall she's doing well.More news: Printable bracket for women's NCAA Tournament 2018
Muthart was a good student in high school, she told the magazine.
A month later she found another job, where a co-worker there pressured her to try meth, to which she eventually agreed. After losing her job and realizing the dangers of using the drug, she tried to "steer clear of meth". She took a video recording of her behavior on it. I eventually got taken home and got sober and watched the videos, and put that person out of my life and stopped using the drug, ' she said.
But now she is determined to help others. "I was scared. I was super scared to go to the rehab".
"But when I was 19 last summer", she told Cosmopolitan, "I was smoking pot with an acquaintance at his house and got a unusual high".
She says music is a major part of her recovery. She fought so hard that her wrists hurt for weeks.
"I " m able to be Kaylee again. She tried to avoid serious drugs, since addiction ran in her family. I'm Kaylee Jean Muthart, just like I was 10 years ago.More news: Rice Midstream Partners LP (RMP) Technical Fundamentals and Valuation
She just received a refurbished iPhone in the mail Friday, tearing open the package like it was Christmas. Tompkins has launched a fundraising campaign to get Muthart a guide dog once she is out of the hospital.